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Am I an orphan now?

On Tuesday, July 21st at around 11:20 am, I held my father’s hand as he died. Tomorrow is the memorial service. I really don’t have a lot to say yet, I’m sure more will come in time. What I do know is that I don’t have any living parents anymore. I have joined the club… Continue reading Am I an orphan now?

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Opening volley against fear

Sometimes fear is a complex thing.  Sometimes it hides itself inside of something. I love to write, it is something that I feel that I need to do in order to be happier.  So one might think that since I have this blog and write posts, I am doing what makes me happy. It does… Continue reading Opening volley against fear

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there is always something to learn

Sometimes you need to observe someone else struggling in order to see your own. I have written before about my struggle with control.  From seemingly insignificant things like the way a book is going to end or searching for spoilers to see if I want to see a movie to the feelings I experienced after… Continue reading there is always something to learn

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reflection

So I decided to give dating a shot again. Such a strange world to be a part of.  On Friday night I met a man for dinner. We had a nice time, often commiserating on the ‘joys’ of dating.  One of the things he mentioned was logistics.  One story was about someone he dated for… Continue reading reflection

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a new day

This morning I was faced with a choice, actually every morning I am blessed to wake up I face the same choice.  Do I take a moment before getting up to begin my day based in gratitude and positivity, or do I just grumble as I get out of bed & begin my routine? I… Continue reading a new day

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the door & the window

‘When a door closes, a window opens’ There are probably untold variations of that quote.  The inspirational message that although something ended or you didn’t get what you want, there is always another direction for you to travel. I know for me personally, sometimes I don’t realize until much later that there was a window… Continue reading the door & the window

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hindsight

I have been thinking a lot about this topic lately.  In large part due to the anniversary of my losing my mom.  I remember so many times over the last 18 years just wishing I could have her back.  For me personally, I have been living with this life altering loss for almost 2 decades.… Continue reading hindsight