‘show me a sign’…part ‘duh!’
original post – https://startingoverat45.wordpress.com/2014/02/16/show-me-a-sign/
I am trying to show myself grace & know that although it may have been easy to see if you read that post, it took me until this morning in the shower to realize something.
I feel a bit like one of the victims in a horror movie…you know the one you want to scream at since they can not see what is so obvious to you.
I wrote….When you are stuck, you are a spectator and you are certainly not ‘Daring Greatly’. Directly under that sentence I posted this:
I wish to amend that statement, I was avoiding the book not because I was a spectator but because I was actually on the ‘injured reserve’ roster. Stuck? Yes but funny how I was unable to recognize something important:
I did enter the arena.
I dared greatly
and I failed.
I know defeat and it hurt, it left me battered and wounded.
Instead of realizing that I did go into the arena, I just felt the defeat, the failure.
So there you have it. That is really why the book sat collecting dust.
The struggle to heal & find the courage to somehow return to the arena when my last attempt didn’t end so well.
I needed time.
Time to ‘see the sign’ & then a little more time to ‘connect the dots’.